I like the idea of dying by a cancer or some illness where they label me with an expiry date. Nobody who's in their right mind would say that right? But I keep saying that again and again, Why? Because then nobody will have to live with regrets.. Things they could have done for me, fights they could have avoided so that they will not resent themselves after I die. A cancer or any disease which has an ability to kill a person hurts. It definitely hurts I know, but I don't want to die suddenly leaving people who loves me in misery. When you have an expiry date just like a jar of candy on your shelf you get to use the most of it wisely and carefully. Any death hurts.. I have seen more than 200 deaths. Death is so painful and takes time.
Last one to die was my grandmother. Even though we lived in the same house I didn't have time to even look at her during last few months. I was buried under a pile of books and I didn't even heard an ambulance coming and taking her to the hospital. I was in my room reading a book and I didn't hear a single thing. I was in my bubble wandering in a world an author whom I don't even know had made up for me. And then she just died. She died vomiting blood alone in a hospital bed and instead of going to see her, I had to go to university that morning. She was very old and everybody she knew had died. We were the only ones she had to talk to but I just couldn't find time to talk to her, but if I knew she was to die on that day, my behavior won't be the same. I will find time somehow to be with her. I know everybody has stories like that.. So many unspoken words, memories we could have made with them. So live like they die tomorrow. Always make memories with your loved ones. Even though you think you hate a one who loves you, once they are gone you will regret.Trust me you will. Don't take anyone for granted. Just don't make yourself live a life with regrets, coz it hurts. Have a nice day !!!
Attachment to something mostly brings sorrow. Quoted the following from a famous movie. "Attachment to the material is detachment from the spiritual. " It sounds more like from Buddhism. Anyway it's lot to think about.
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